Razorlight frontman JOHNNY BORRELL has admitted he was "in a bad state" during his band's rise to fame in 2005. The British star lashed out at a waitress during a trip to Denver, Colorado, last year (05), when she asked a then-barefoot Borrell to cover his feet. He later told the audience while performing at a gig in the city he wanted to kill himself. But the GOLDEN TOUCH hitmaker insists he's changed since Razorlight's early days. He says, "Oh I was so f**king out of order that day. I was lashing out at whatever was put in front of me. "But I was in a bad state. I was feeling completely alienated by everything. "I wasn't having any fun whatsoever - I was in such a hole."