Professor Green has revealed the last thing he said to his dad before he committed suicide was that he hated him and now admits he still finds it ''difficult'' to speak about his feelings at the time of his father's passing.
Professor Green's last words to his dad before he committed suicide were, ''I hate you''.
The 31-year-old star lost his father Peter in 2008 and the rapper admits he still finds it ''difficult'' to speak about his feelings at the time of his dad's passing and doesn't think he'll ever stop grieving for him.
Pro - who sings about his dad in 2011 hit single 'Read All About It' - he said: ''He was always the parent I favoured but as a child it was complicated.
''He was always in and out of my life; at 18 we stopped talking and after five years I decided to reach out to try and arrange a meeting.
''Unfortunately we ended up arguing and the last words I said to him were, 'I hate you.' The terrible thing is I never got to see him again because a few months later he killed himself.
''The moment I found out my dad had taken his own life is still as clear today as it was the moment it happened. I kept wondering why no one had seen it coming.
''I still find it quite difficult to articulate how I felt. It's been six years since it happened and the weird thing about grieving is it never stops.''
Pro - whose real name is Stephen Manderson - is backing charity CALM (Campaign Against Living Miserably), which tries to help prevent male suicide, and he admits he wishes there had been more help for his father before he died.
Speaking on BBC Lifeline documentary 'CALM', which he hosted, the star - who is married to Millie Mackintosh - added: ''Society likes to tell you you have to be happy all the time which makes it easy for you to think that if you're not then there's something wrong with you.
''But happiness isn't something you can feel all the time, and here's the key, neither is sadness; I just wish my dad had known that.''
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