The General Hospital star kicked off the New Year by reflecting on her ups and downs of 2015 in a blog post on Sunday (03Jan16) and she revealed she fell pregnant with her first child over the summer (15) and when she found out she was having a girl, it was "the best day of my life".

However, MCCullough, 37, suffered a miscarriage and lost her child after 22 weeks.

She writes, "My heart was so full and then it broke. I had lost my baby girl. It was too much. I didn't need to learn this lesson. I wasn't interested. But I wasn't in control. These things happen and no, I don't believe they happen 'for a reason.' I'm still processing, still healing, but anyone who has gone through it knows, losing a baby at 22 weeks is tragic. One thing I am proud of however was that I allowed myself to be happy and to relish the moment. I sat in all that goodness and I can recall those feelings (when I'm having different ones) and hope that it can be like that again."

She concludes her blog posts by writing, "Not to go total Oprah (Winfrey) on you, but at the end of this year and the beginning of the next, I am grateful for it all. Tired. But grateful."