Pop star Ke$Ha considered suicide after a photo of her purportedly pleasuring a male friend appeared online.
The Die Young singer has no recollection of the oral sex moment and is not convinced it's her in the scandalous snap, which sent bloggers into a frenzy and left her feeling awful.
She tells Rolling Stone magazine she had never contemplated taking her life "before that" and assures fans she would never go through with a suicide bid, but adds the drama led to a bout of insomnia.
She explains, "I went three days without sleeping, and I was hallucinating from lack of sleep, so my doctor put me on anti-anxiety medication."
And Ke$ha admits the scandal has left her scarred: "I call my manager every morning and say, 'Is there anything negative about me in the news today?'
"I don't even know if that's me in the photo. I don't remember that situation... Not with blue eye shadow on! C'mon, I'm not a stripper!"
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