Fallen country music star Mindy McCready refuses to watch her seizure episode on U.S. reality TV show CELEBRITY REHAB - because she can't stand the idea of seeing herself in so much pain.
The singer sparked a medical emergency when she suffered convulsions on the show, filmed at the Pasadena Recovery Center last year (09).
The graphic episode aired earlier this year (10), but MCCready - who has no memory of the seizure - still hasn't seen the footage.
She says, "I can't watch it."