Korn frontman Jonathan Davis still wishes he could relive the wild drug-fuelled days of his past "every once in a while", 12 years after kicking his addiction.
The rocker regularly reminisces about his old crazy behaviour, but insists he is well aware any slip-up in his bid to stay clean will result in his death.
And he credits his three children with keeping him focused on the road to sobriety.
He tells Fasterlouder.com.au, "If I could do drugs every once in a little while, I'd do the f**k out of them.
"(But) I know if I did (take drugs), I would be dead and I want to be with my children. It's a deterrent."
Davis has one son with his first wife Renee Perez, and two young boys with his second spouse, former porn star Deven.