Kendra Wilkinson reportedly ''feels like such a fool.''
The former Playboy model, who has a son, Hank IV, four, and a daughter, Alijah, eight weeks, is still in shock over rumours her husband, Hank Baskett, cheated on her with a transsexual model while she was eight months pregnant with her second child because she thought their relationship was ''rock solid.''
A source told PEOPLE magazine: ''She wanted to throw Hank out but couldn't because she is healing [from giving birth] and needs help with the kids.
''She's feels so stupid walking around like her life was so perfect and that her marriage was so solid. She feels like such a fool.''
The 'Kendra On Top' star, 29, ''cries every day,'' but plans to hold off on making any drastic decisions about the future of her marriage for the sake of their children.
A source previously claimed Kendra wanted to try to rebuild her relationship with Hank, 31, because she hated growing up in ''a broken home.''
The insider said: ''Kendra grew up in a broken home, so she always swore she'd never divorce.
''She is emotionally and financially invested in the relationship. She can't just walk away.''
The actress spoke about raising her 11 year old daughter Matilda in the wake of Heath Ledger's death eight years ago.