Katie Holmes has been devastated by the rumours and gossip surrounding the birth of her baby SURI and her relationship with Tom Cruise. The first photo of five-month-old Suri posing with her parents appears on the cover of the October (06) issue of Vanity Fair magazine in the US. The 27-year-old tells the magazine that gossip about her family, "eats away at me because it's just not okay... Some of the crap that's out there - the stuff that's said about my parents and my siblings (implying that they didn't approve of her relationship with Cruise) - it's really frustrating the amount of s**t that's out there. "And the stuff they say about Suri? You shouldn't say that about us, and you can't say that about my child." Holmes says she feels compelled to read tabloid stories because, "This is my future. This is my family, and I care so much about them. "To see how someone as caring and good as Tom is - to see how things just get so twisted and turned around. I mean, where does it come from?" The former DAWSON'S CREEK star was also humiliated by the media coverage she received when she was expecting adding, "(I) was overjoyed being pregnant, and then had to withstand ridicule about my pregnancy when it was the most normal, non-controversial thing imaginable."