HOUSE star Hugh Laurie hates talking to the press about his past - comparing the experience with putting his "testicles on a chopping board". The British actor, who has previously admitted to suffering from clinical depression, tries to remain upbeat by focusing on the future. But reporters like to delve into his background, and their questions often trigger a negative mood swing in Laurie. He says, "Obviously you are in a very vulnerable position (when you give an interview). You are putting your testicles on a chopping board. "I get anxious about a lot of things, that's the trouble. I get anxious about everything. I just can't stop thinking about things all the time. "And here's the really destructive part - it's always retrospective. I waste time thinking of what I should have said or done. I can't bear going through the same f**king dance of despair."