Hilaria Baldwin has opened up about how her obsession with latin and ballroom dancing caused her to suffer from anorexia and bulimia.
Hilaria Baldwin's obsession with dancing caused her to suffer from anorexia and bulimia.
The 32-year-old star developed a passion for latin and ballroom dancing when she was a young girl but admits it had an affect on how she perceived her body.
She shared: ''Without realising it, I started drifting away from the playful connection to movement I'd enjoyed as a young child and into a different and darker kind of dynamic: pushing my body to its limits and commanding it to perform through pain or fatigue. A long simmering struggle with anorexia and bulimia began to hold me firmly in its grip.
''By the time I was 20 years old, my 5-foot-3 frame was at least 20 lbs. under a healthy weight. My nails were brittle, my hair was falling out, my period was MIA, and my energy had tanked. I was miserable and desperate to feel better.''
And when Hilaria - who has Carmen Gabriela, three, Rafael Thomas, 18 months, and Leonardo Ángel Charles, three months, with her husband Alec Baldwin - discovered yoga, she thought it would make things better but she still found herself pushing her body to the limit as she tried to become a yoga instructor and follow her dream of opening her own studio.
Writing in her book 'The Living Clearly Method', she added: ''I wish I could say that it was smooth sailing from this point on, but sometimes things have to get a whole lot worse before they get better. Even while I was helping so many others, I still didn't listen to my body. Extraordinarily long days became my reality; skipping meals was par for the course.''