THE Gossip star Beth Ditto kept her feelings for her personal assistant hidden because she was wracked with guilt at "cheating" on her girlfriend.
The outlandish singer broke up with her bus driver lover Freddie earlier this year (10) after nine years together.
She started dating her assistant Kristin within weeks of the split, and admits she had been hiding her true feelings for her pal for a long time - even though she was faithful to her previous lover.
Ditto tells Britain's Marie Claire magazine, "It was something that I kept hidden deep inside me. But everyone knew. Even people at parties and clubs would be like, 'When are they going to get together?' There was always a little guilt inside me because I felt like I was cheating but I never cheated, we never did anything. It's hard to explain."
And Ditto is adamant the fears which marred her previous relationship don't bother her anymore: "I dated Freddie for nine years, and I always felt worried it was going to end. With Kristin I never worry about it ending, I just feel completely full and whole."