British Rocker Brett Anderson Bitterly Regrets Splitting From His Songwriting Partner Bernard Butler 21 Years Ago And Is Kept Awake At Night By His Hellish Torment.
The pair shot to fame in the early 1990s with rock band Suede, but the group came close to splitting in 1994 following a series of bust-ups between singer Anderson and guitarist Butler as they recorded their second album, Dog Man Star.
Butler eventually walked out of the band that same year to be replaced by an unknown teenager, and despite their success continuing for years, Anderson has now confessed he wishes he could turn back the clock and fight harder to keep Butler in the group.
He even admits his brief reunion with Butler as a duo named The Tears in 2004 was a failed attempt to recapture their glory days.
Anderson tells Uncut magazine, "It plagues me, it keeps me up at night. We can never go back to that moment where he left and carry on, because everything is different. And that's so sad. We sort of tried that with The Tears, but it's impossible, we are different people and it can never happen.
"It tortures me that I was stupid enough to let Bernard go. No disrespect to (replacement Suede members) Neil (Codling) or Richard (Oakes), we became a different band, and I have a lot of respect for all of them, but Suede Mk 1 was very special."
However, Anderson doubts that even if Butler had stayed in Suede the band would have produced a record more groundbreaking than the critically-acclaimed Dog Man Star.
He adds, "Could we have gone further left field that (sic) Dog Man Star? I don't think so. When you look at what Bernard did (after leaving Suede), that wasn't further out there."