Former model Alicia Douvall attempted suicide over the Christmas (13) holidays by downing vodka and pills while in a hotel room with her young daughter.
The Brit, who previously dated music mogul Simon Cowell, has admitted she attempted to end her life in December (13) while in the company of her two-year-old girl, Papaya.
She wrote a suicide note to her elder daughter, 18-year-old Georgia, and scattered food and water around her hotel room so Papaya would not go hungry.
Douvall, 34, tells Britain's Sunday Mirror newspaper, "I just kept thinking, 'If I am dead, my children will have a better future.' I felt overwhelmed... I could not see a way out... I went to (supermarket) Tesco Express and bought the cheapest bottle of vodka I could find... I had this box full of tablets. I sat in my hotel room - I didn't call anyone - and I started taking them, washing them down with the drink.
"Papaya was too young to know what was happening... I had left water and food around the room because I was aware that she may not be found for a while if I died."
Douvall passed out, but later woke up and changed her mind about the suicide attempt, vomiting up the pills and eventually seeking help. She put her troubles down to financial problems and a string of failed relationships.